Pastor in the Pasture, Wendel Elliott: Who Am I?
I rolled up to the sale barn with a trailer load of cattle. It was the first time for such an event. Sure I had helped load lots of livestock on trucks to ship to the sale or direct to the buyer. This was a first though, to represent a ranch by hauling a trailer load of calves to the sale. It’s a big responsibility. I mean, we aren’t talking pocket change here! We’re talking about transactions that are well into the tens of thousands of dollars. I was the one that was carrying that heavy weight of someone else’s livelihood. The owner and his family were counting on me. They had bills to pay just like I did. There’s future plans for him to be thinking about with kids going to college and retirement savings to be put away. Not to mention there’s my salary that he pays in the mix as well. This load of cattle was just one piece in the overall puzzle. However, what really drove it home for me and made this responsibility sink in was when I looked at that unload receipt. There it was at the very bottom of the ticket in bold letters: Seller or Seller’s Agent Signature.
I kind of gulped as I realized not only was I putting my name on the line but there was someone else I was representing that was relying on me. At that moment I also felt like I was inadequate for the task or business at hand. Who am I to be conducting this major deal? I don’t have the experience or the influence that the owner has for this type of situation.
If you’re a camp man or a ranch foreman working for a single owner or even a large corporation, that owner is counting on you. Not only counting on you but that you’re representing. Whatever you say or do is a word or deed for the ranch. At times maybe you’ve felt that weight of responsibility and felt somewhat inadequate for the task.
I think that is where we get sometimes as believers and followers of Christ. We think of the enormity and weight of responsibility that Jesus has placed on us, expecting us to be at His work and represent Him. We hesitate and take a big gulp as we sign our name where it reads: Seller or Seller’s Agent. We think, “Who am I, that the Lord would want to use me? He knows the things I’ve done, people I’ve ran around with, and where I’ve been. Why me, Lord? How can I do this?” Good questions to ponder as we wrestle with inadequacies and shortcomings we all have to face.
Here are some verses to help you through those times that you think you’re not quite measuring up in your mind:
“You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you.” (John 15:16, NASB)
“Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were making an appeal through us; we beg you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God.” (2 Corinthians 5:20, NASB)
“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we would be holy and blameless before Him. In love He predestined us to adoption as sons through Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the kind intention of His will…” (Ephesians 1:3-5 NASB) (Read all of Ephesians Chapter 1 for more)
So when you are thinking, “Who am I that God would use me and be His representative or His agent?” Remember that He chose you, you are His ambassador, and He has blessed you with being His.
Well, I best be getting to it I have to go sign my name to that line.
I’ll see y’all out in the pasture!